words of encouragement

Sorry is not the right word to hear, but if it is for me, be glad that i accept it with understanding, and my sorry for you goes with it.
Persevere Ramil, there are task that may seem too difficult to be fulfilled, nevertheless push through with it with dedication that no matter what happens you would accept the consequences that may occur, never back out nor neglect your job.
this is the time in which you must develop your capabilities, there are lots of possibilities waiting for you if you'll only have the courage to step forward and face the consequences, hurts and pains that would go through it.
you might have experienced a lot of sorrow in your life, but that is not a reason for you not to be hurt again, to be hurt is part of life and you'll always get hurt no matter what - what matters is that you accept them positively and view them as part of your maturity and development rather than your failure.
helping others is good but you must first learn to help yourself, there would come a time that those you had helped may not even remember you, and when that time comes you must be able to help yourself. Develop more your abilities, and your confidence. It may entitle you to step on other people but that is a fact you must accept as part of human development, you may go back to help those you have stepped upon when you have developed fully yourself in the future.
God will always be there but remember that He too would like that you yourself develop your potentials.
Take care always, and God bless.